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Before I start, I just want to say that I wish the public education system would alert people using escalators to stand on the right and walk on the left. Drives me up the freakin’ wall when I’m in a rush and I can’t make the train because there’s a veritable wall of scrubs riding up that escalator.

Now, I’ve got two days off every week for the next four months. This means I have a four day weekend. The trade off? I endure a 5 hour grind session on a Monday with no breaks in between.

I’m reconsidering my future, yet again. On the one hand, I want to go to law school but I know it would be very difficult for my family and I to afford it. We’re not exactly middle class or anything. I don’t want to end up going and then finding out that it’s not something I want to do. I know that at the very least I want to finish out my Criminology degree and do my 4 years (which will end up being 5 or 6 at the rate I’m going).

Yet, my WoW blog has given me pause. I never expected to be here after a year. I never expected to have this many followers. I don’t know what to do. How do I keep improving and keep pushing? It feels overwhelming at times. Heh, I like to just scream out at night when I’m home alone that “I’M NOT QUALIFIED TO DO ANY OF THIS! WHAT THE HELL WAS I THINKING?”. It’s an unexpected blessing to be sure. Ever since High School I’ve always loved writing. Sometimes if my friends weren’t around or they were at practice or something, I’d end up sitting in the hallway just putting stuff down on paper even if it never made sense.

Can it be done professionally? I don’t know. I don’t have the proper training. University English 101 or whatever is the only actual official proof that I have. I’m not the greatest technical writer but I have a knack of sensing things about readers, other bloggers, the environment, the situation and how to interact with them all. It functions as a 6th sense.

I love what I’m doing. I could see myself doing this as a career. But Asian upbringing has always taught me to take the best and stable path. I wasn’t smart enough to be a doctor. Western upbringing has taught me to follow what I want to do. But I don’t know if it’s good enough.

How do I reconcile both?

On the other hand, there’s always Plan B.

Marry rich.